Still praying, hoping and wishing

Its been a long while, and too many ups and downs. my boy is growing older every day, and i am still longing for his Dad. Sometimes i feel like crying and i cant even do that, i wonder how and why K wld despise me such much that he cldnt and wldnt consider making up with me. i find it hard to comprehend that all the time we had together meant nothing to him. i cld still remember every minute of every time we spent together. most of all what i cant understand and comprehend is the fact that I AM STILL IN LOVE WITH HIM.



I honestly dont know what to do, and i am tired of making a fool of myself, i always feel like leting him know how i feel. I pray my prayers are answered and very soon too.